socially awkward.

Sometimes, I wonder-

I can’t help myself asking.

Why are you with me?

Ginising ako ni Bathala gamit ang init at nakakasilaw na liwanag ni haring araw.

Dahan-dahan kong imunulat ang aking mga mata, umaasang baka sakaling nasa tabi pa kita.

Sana nga panaginip lang ang lahat.

Babangon akong may guhit ng ngiti sa aking mga labi dahil sa iyong napakahimbing na pagkakahimlay sa kamang pinuno mo ng mala-bahagharing kulay.

Subalit ang aking mga ngiti’y napawi, pilit hinahaplos ang mga mala-sultang bakas na iyong mainit na katawan na iniwan sa ating mumunting paraiso. Isang paraisong parisukat, na gawa sa tela, kutson, at pag-ibig.

Wala ka na.

Hindi ko ninanais gumising pa.

Mahirap.

Hindi ko kaya.

Failure is always been a part of life, just like change, achievement, and goals. Life in general is not always fair, it’s not a utopia where thoughts of idealism are entertained. This is not a perfect world, it does not necessarily mean that if you give your best, you will always succeed. More often than not, we still fail. It is a learning experience for us, we learn to accept rejections, we learn to play fair, and we learn to never give up on our hopes and dreams. 

After few years of staying in the bottom of the corporate pyramid, you would realize that you need personal growth in the company. A particular space that would give you a title, respect, and at least a sense of stability. When that opportunity knocks at your doorsteps, there’s nothing that you can’t do but to grab it.

I started as Customer Service Representative back in 2007. For almost two years, I was just an agent, spending at least 8 hours of his day talking to the customers overseas. It was never easy, not only it’s physically tiring, but also emotionally draining. Opportunity comes along, and there was an opening for a Quality Coordinator for that account. At first, I had hesitations of applying, but I still tried. It was a rocky path, there are at least eighty agents applied for that same position. The screening process is complex, and it requires written exams, oral exams, product knowledge, group interactions, and interviews. Fortunately, I was part of the remaining eight agents who qualify for the final interview. I gave my best, I stepped my best-foot forward, I answered as honest as possible, and put all my efforts to it. Unfortunately, they can only get four Quality Coordinators, and I failed. It was frustrating, but I just went back to my station, took a deep breath, smiled, and happily welcomed the customer waiting in the other line. 

WIth that failure, I learned a lot of things, i learned to be patient, I learned to persevere, I learned to communicate effectively, and I learned to never give up to my dreams.

‘Failure is a detour, not a dead-end street.’ - Zig Ziglar

I bid farewell, moon.

As the sun rises, we sleep.

Good morning! Goodnight!

Pwedeng mag-rebound.

Pero pag nakasakit,

‘sang malaking foul!

Waiting, then finding,

losing, hurting, and smiling -

A cycle, called love.

Heto na naman ako, nagising mula sa napakagandang panaginip.
Panaginip kung saan kasama ka, malaya, at napakasaya.
Panaginip kung saan tangan-tangan ko ang iyong mga kamay.
Nakakahilo. Nakakalito. 

Hindi na ako natuto, muli, ito’y inakala kong totoo.
Ayoko ko ng bumalik sa realidad.
Ayoko ko ng gumising.
Nais kong matulog muli, upang balikan ang ating nakaraan.

Immeasurable,

unconditional, and true - 

how much i love you.

Butterflies flutter,

whenever I see you smile,

for the millionth time.

I am missing you.

Your laugh, your smile, your warm hugs,

everything ‘bout you.

Masaya ako,

at nakilala kita -

ikaw at ako.

Completely unlike - 

salt and pepper, yin and yang.

Yet we’re together.

That’s what I’m feeling.

I’m starting to despise you,

please stop using me.